People can be irrational. So what? Doesn't everyone have a bad, bad day now and then? And isn't it awful to throw away a potentially beneficial relationship because of a terrible mis understanding?
So this is where I am at today. I see two people have individually had a bad day. And they unfortunately ended up in the same room alone. Both people were impossibly rushed and busy with their own issues. They failed to communicate effectively. One or both lost composure. One said I don't deserve to be treated this way and retreated angrily. And the other said I don't deserve to be treated this way and angrily accepted the retreat.
Neither is happy and now it seems it the business is being thrown away, at least temporarily.
So which party was right? Don't know but I see no reason why it can't be fixed. Suppose bad things do happen and I can't understand or fix them all.
I guess I just sigh and move to a different customer. Wonder what can I do to make amends to my customer for this? What can I do to make amends with my co-workers and boss.
Grown up world is definitely not for the faint of heart.
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Weird
I don't know why I must alwAys apologize for being absent from the blog. Why it matters that I spend more time dealing face to face with business associates than with Facebook a long time ago we went to high school friends.
Weird.
New job is nice. It has it's unique headaches and it's refreshing moments. As always it comes down to me and my struggles with ADHD. I finally have medical but no coverage for preexisting conditions like ADHD until the end of September. So some of the guidance I want I cant have because I can't afford to pay 100% cash.
I have more questions than answers today. One of them is why does it take so long to get rid of a cold? Why do employers punish previously convicted people who served their debt to society? I get that you don't want someone who will hurt your business but the reality is that by not allowing people who screwed up move forward we are just forcing them to turn to crime for food and housing. And why do I always need to go number 2 after I pass the last clean restroom?
Weird.
New job is nice. It has it's unique headaches and it's refreshing moments. As always it comes down to me and my struggles with ADHD. I finally have medical but no coverage for preexisting conditions like ADHD until the end of September. So some of the guidance I want I cant have because I can't afford to pay 100% cash.
I have more questions than answers today. One of them is why does it take so long to get rid of a cold? Why do employers punish previously convicted people who served their debt to society? I get that you don't want someone who will hurt your business but the reality is that by not allowing people who screwed up move forward we are just forcing them to turn to crime for food and housing. And why do I always need to go number 2 after I pass the last clean restroom?
Thursday, August 2, 2012
Contrary to Klout.com
I am still alive.
Ridiculously tired, excited and eager!
I love exclamation points!!!!
So since I have been gone:
I went to NYC for the first time! It was also a family vacation. The kids and my mother, stepfather and stepsisters.
I finally closed on my house! Take that rotten Park on Olive apartments!
I started my new job at Command Center as a Business Development specialist. Turns out if I am given space, time, great support from my staff, wonderful guidance from my boss and a House Manager/nanny I will be quite successful! My job is very cool! I get to explore the city, be my usual inquisitive and curious self. If it looks interesting I can get out of my car and learn all about it. I get to explore new buildings all over town before anyone else! Meet hundreds of new people and learn fascinating things. I am constantly reminded of the book Invisible Cities and the tales of Marco Polo's travels in it. Its absolutely awesome! Who knew you could get paid to be an explorer!
Ridiculously tired, excited and eager!
I love exclamation points!!!!
So since I have been gone:
I went to NYC for the first time! It was also a family vacation. The kids and my mother, stepfather and stepsisters.
I finally closed on my house! Take that rotten Park on Olive apartments!
I started my new job at Command Center as a Business Development specialist. Turns out if I am given space, time, great support from my staff, wonderful guidance from my boss and a House Manager/nanny I will be quite successful! My job is very cool! I get to explore the city, be my usual inquisitive and curious self. If it looks interesting I can get out of my car and learn all about it. I get to explore new buildings all over town before anyone else! Meet hundreds of new people and learn fascinating things. I am constantly reminded of the book Invisible Cities and the tales of Marco Polo's travels in it. Its absolutely awesome! Who knew you could get paid to be an explorer!
Friday, May 18, 2012
Definitely Maybe
I obviously have a crush on Ryan Reynolds. Even in bad movies he has a certain charm. It must be his eyes.
A romantic movie, also a bit sad. Makes me want to read Jane Eyre again. So many movies, this Jane just happened to be a William.
A movie like this causes me to relish in Hollywood fantasy of fairy tale endings. You know that wonderful man, perfectly charming, ambitious, thoughtful and you live happily in your well decorated home with your perfect children. Ah and let's not forget never a care or worry about money, employment or dirty carpets.
Back to trying to create my fantasy reality.
A romantic movie, also a bit sad. Makes me want to read Jane Eyre again. So many movies, this Jane just happened to be a William.
A movie like this causes me to relish in Hollywood fantasy of fairy tale endings. You know that wonderful man, perfectly charming, ambitious, thoughtful and you live happily in your well decorated home with your perfect children. Ah and let's not forget never a care or worry about money, employment or dirty carpets.
Back to trying to create my fantasy reality.
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Whaaaa, pity parade
A bit bored and incredibly frustrated. Whoa is me. Pity party today. Don't know why that just put a big smile on my face.
My little Nick is sick again. He has a fever and cough. I am thinking about taking him to urgent care this afternoon. In between work, my doctors appointment, and my Committee meeting with Pack 293. It makes me feel guilty that I have things to do for me but very little time for him.
My baby says he is sick, I think he is just jealous because Nick is getting my attention.
I feel guilty about not writing for my blog. It just feels wrong to focus on finding a job when I am employed. It feels wrong to prepare and organize for a whole year of Cub Scouts Committee meetings. It feels so weird to do things that make me feel good about who I am and it causes a bit of guilt. I know the kids are having a hard time adjusting to my grueling schedule of exersizing, packing a lunch, Working, commuting, applying for different jobs, interviewing once or twice a week. They are accustom to Mommy playing and taking them the places. I gotta admit I miss the playing a lot.
So I guess it is mostly some crazy super mom complex that I am suffering from. I suppose most moms suffer from this from time to time. Then their is the ADHD portion of me that just can't be satisfied with what I have accomplished or finish an uninteresting task. If every moment is not jam packed with some crazy to-do list I feel useless and unfulfilled.
It's that crazy drive that is make me insane at work. I find myself incapable of just doing my job, just dialing and booking windshield appointments. I find myself needing to fill the time in between dials as the phone rings. I have filled it by researching cost, looking at job listings, re-writing a resume, typing this blog and generally not sitting still. What have I learned since taking this job? That I need some job that is either physically or mentally demanding. I simply can't deal with an easy job, I need constant challenge and stimulation. Yes, it's simply crazy, I need difficult work. Worse it has nothing to do with pay or commuting distance, it's simply I can't stand being bored.
On another subject for my pity parade; the house is almost ours, mine. Another smile on my face. Hoping to hear about the second mortgage soon so we can finalize it all. I have a ton of fears on this, like will we qualify for the better VA home loan? Will we have enough cash to get into the other Vha loan if we don't get the Va loan? Will the bank approve the second home loan? What do I do once we get the house? What about furniture? How will Nick handle this?
And then why can't I master Spanish? I already figured out that I can not practice Spanish tapes in the car, I nearly rear-ended 2 cars in traffic! Oh right, I never get time alone to practice, and I am too self conscience to practice it out loud when the kids are awake, and to tired by the time they go to sleep. I know just get over it and do it in front of the kids! I just feel weird about it, like who your kid walks in while your getting it on.
So I guess I need to clean all he shit up since the parade is over. Thanks for not judging.
My little Nick is sick again. He has a fever and cough. I am thinking about taking him to urgent care this afternoon. In between work, my doctors appointment, and my Committee meeting with Pack 293. It makes me feel guilty that I have things to do for me but very little time for him.
My baby says he is sick, I think he is just jealous because Nick is getting my attention.
I feel guilty about not writing for my blog. It just feels wrong to focus on finding a job when I am employed. It feels wrong to prepare and organize for a whole year of Cub Scouts Committee meetings. It feels so weird to do things that make me feel good about who I am and it causes a bit of guilt. I know the kids are having a hard time adjusting to my grueling schedule of exersizing, packing a lunch, Working, commuting, applying for different jobs, interviewing once or twice a week. They are accustom to Mommy playing and taking them the places. I gotta admit I miss the playing a lot.
So I guess it is mostly some crazy super mom complex that I am suffering from. I suppose most moms suffer from this from time to time. Then their is the ADHD portion of me that just can't be satisfied with what I have accomplished or finish an uninteresting task. If every moment is not jam packed with some crazy to-do list I feel useless and unfulfilled.
It's that crazy drive that is make me insane at work. I find myself incapable of just doing my job, just dialing and booking windshield appointments. I find myself needing to fill the time in between dials as the phone rings. I have filled it by researching cost, looking at job listings, re-writing a resume, typing this blog and generally not sitting still. What have I learned since taking this job? That I need some job that is either physically or mentally demanding. I simply can't deal with an easy job, I need constant challenge and stimulation. Yes, it's simply crazy, I need difficult work. Worse it has nothing to do with pay or commuting distance, it's simply I can't stand being bored.
On another subject for my pity parade; the house is almost ours, mine. Another smile on my face. Hoping to hear about the second mortgage soon so we can finalize it all. I have a ton of fears on this, like will we qualify for the better VA home loan? Will we have enough cash to get into the other Vha loan if we don't get the Va loan? Will the bank approve the second home loan? What do I do once we get the house? What about furniture? How will Nick handle this?
And then why can't I master Spanish? I already figured out that I can not practice Spanish tapes in the car, I nearly rear-ended 2 cars in traffic! Oh right, I never get time alone to practice, and I am too self conscience to practice it out loud when the kids are awake, and to tired by the time they go to sleep. I know just get over it and do it in front of the kids! I just feel weird about it, like who your kid walks in while your getting it on.
So I guess I need to clean all he shit up since the parade is over. Thanks for not judging.
Friday, April 27, 2012
Just an unpopular thought
So i was busy surfing the top news on digg.com and found this article about how sarah palin supports ending child labor laws. To be absolutely fair she was referring to the proposed expansion of the child labor laws that would prevent children from working on the family farm. She is not refering to children being allowed to work at your local mc donalds sereving up french fries. I must admit i support here thoughts that children should be allowed to work on a family farm. I also support the idea that children should be allowed to work on farms not owned by their family. I know the reality of how our fruits and vegetables get to our table. It is from the hands of babes we get our food and these children are boyth legal and illegal citizens. Yes they are often very poor and this is their chance to eat. Of course every selfish american could just make sure their neighbors are fed and housed.
You can view the article and existing comments at http://digg.com/news/offbeat/sarah_palin_claims_child_labor_laws_are_causing_america_to_fail
You can view the article and existing comments at http://digg.com/news/offbeat/sarah_palin_claims_child_labor_laws_are_causing_america_to_fail
Monday, April 23, 2012
Did I mention
I am impatient! Waiting is so fustrating! I just don't understand people who don't respond in 24 hours or less. Okay, I know. But when I write to you as a customer I expect a 24 hour turn around. That is how business is done in this instant gratification society.
So please respond when I am giving you what little money I have ASAP.
So please respond when I am giving you what little money I have ASAP.